After a few false restarts and Im back on my quit and fighting for it again.
I managed a couple of 3/4 days quit and then went to the shop and bought some more. I was sitting watching tv last night and noticed how hard my breathing had become again, I thought about the hacking cough that had restarted, I thought about suffocating to death as my copd progressed and then I thought *what the bloody hell am I doing*
I soaked what was left in the packet and chucked them away and started right back on my lozenges when I got up this morning. I havent bothered with the patches, I seem to crave more when I have one of those on my arm.
I hope that all of the lovely people who supported me last time are still here and will continue to support me as I go back to work on Monday. This isnt going to be easy, I have been off for 6 months and have a grievance against my line manager to be heard when I go back, so its going to be a pretty tough time.
So anyway, day 1 of my final quit is under way, and this time will be the last time.