10 days ago I drank half a bottle of whisky cried out to God that I was now in his hands and passed out for 6 hours.I know hypothermia is a peaceful way to go and maybe people would think it was an accident and not be cross.Somehow I rang 999 and was saved ..just.I have had 14 weeks in mental hospitals and knew I was going to get admitted for the 6th time as I had suicidal thoughts.I found a charity called Maytree and have just spent 5 days there.The wonderful,unique,compassionate people there talked so openly with so much care and understanding..I was completely humbled.Most are volunteers who give up their free time for people like me.They made me feel I was worth it !! They gave me more help in 5 days than any stay in hospital where you are treated for the most part appallingly.I still have a way to go but I will never go to a mental hospital again...only in handcuffs !! I have always managed to go informally.I hope this helps anyone thinking of suicide.