11 months ago today my world came crashing down
One of the most beautiful and important people in my life committed suicide
I think constantly about her, about how beautiful her smile was, how kind, caring and amazing she was. And the advice she would give would either help or it wouldn't either way she could fix the problem or make it better by being so amazing.
I don't think many people are aware. But I was in love with her, I still love her.
We use to flirt a lot, and just have so much fun.
And nearly everyday I think to myself "What would have happened if I actually made a move to be with her. Would she still be here?". "What could I have done different to help her?".
I believe the pain of loosing someone to suicide is a different kind of grief to any other loss.
Everyday I wish I could be with her, be up there all content and with that beautiful smile!