I have deppresion, anxiety, S.A.D (seasonal affective disorder) and social phobia. I have been a long term selfharmer for 3 years now. In a way I just feel lost. I have had S.A.D most of my life, deppresion and suicidal thoughts since I was 11 and developed sevre anxiety and social phobia after a breakdown this year.
I dont know what to do anymore. I've been in and out of the system for 5 years now and Just want to be left in peace. I've seen numerous mental health people and over the years the symptoms never got any better. I just feel all the time like I was never meant to be happy?
I'm just so close to giving up all together :/ I'm sick of feeling like this! My family dont care, My mum called me an attention seeker when she found out about my selfharm. Its the only thing keeping me alive :/ what do I do? Do I go back to the doctors yet again?
all thats going through my head is "fuck this shit, noone will miss you too much". its scares me :/ I just feel more and more lost everyday.