I dont know from where to start..
I fed up with this life and I cant live anymore with myself or with others
I always used to be a fighter and an optimestic person, but the amount of problems I have been having recently crushed me!
For the first time in my life and for 3 month I've been feeling hopeless and that life is just pointless. I tried so hard to get out from this state of mind but I couldnt. I I have been going to the gym and trying new things. I even went for a long distance solo hiking for two weeks to clear my mind and improve my mood.. nothing worked tho.. the problems in my life are still there and I cant solve them, and Im tired of waiting.. I dont see any escape. Its so unfair since I have no hand in the problems I have
I cant sleep, I lost my interest in my work which I used to love, and I find no pleasure in anything that I do. I dont have anymore energy for social life.. Im quiet most of the time..
I really dont want to give up.. I dont want to die, but it feels that my life on Earth is about to end!
ps, pls dont tell the typical things that life is beautiful and any problem can be solved. Better if you save it. It wont help.