Being depressed *sigh*

[Irisheyes1963]

Well, first, I lost this website a few months back. I'm so glad to have found it again! Thanksgiving through New Year's was brutal as far as the depression. Three years ago, my husband and I both lost our Mom's. My Mom passed away on our Anniversary. My husband's Mom passed away 4 days after Christmas. We spent Christmas there until she passed. We thought after his mom's surgery, we would be taking her home. But due to complications, that didn't happen, sadly.

Two of our grandchildren are just 4 and 8 years old. For them, we smiled a lot and laughed and stayed excited for them through the holidays. But on the "inside", I was depressed and crying. I have two phrases I normally say ( Laughing on the outside while crying on the inside) and (I'm talking does anyone hear me) That one is the way I feel when people ask what's wrong. I start talking about it, and they get this glazed look in their eyes, then try to change the subject, does anyone else feel this way?

I truly felt like I slept most of December. It's my escape (sleep). How were everyone else's holidays-good or bad?