My grown kids are done with me, they can't handle my mental illness nor me any longer. Sadly, they begged me and my elderly Mom to buy the home next to the one we jointly own. I struggle with suicide, hate myself, judge myself, fear life......I ALWAYS HAVE. I taught them not to live this way and pretended to have my"shit together for years". I'm chronically/terminally ill and they know this. I've been my Mom's companion/caretaker for 15 years, I've lived for her.
We tried to move next door to my child in April, my Son left the house next door in Feb. May my house flooded and And Mom and I have been in a hotel ever since. We are alone. My kids won't talk to me anymore, 2 days ago my Daughter actually attacked me, beat me up. They have a very violent Father and he is very happy to have them all dislike me. I know I need to sell my house, but my child putting her hands on me, raising my kids alone, no help from good old Dad then. Can't believe the humans I raised think so low of me? Their Dad put all 3 of us in harms way, beat both of my youngest 2 kids, was a terrible Dad!! Now they idolize him? He's dishonest, just not a good person. Hurts me my kids don't see anything good in me? My Mom needing more help than I can give? Taking care of a crippled, sick woman, 3 dying old cats, being homeless (we didn't even unpack after we moved) I've gone down 220 pounds to 112 in 5 months. I'm so confused, alone, just need some advice. I don't/can't do what I typically do. That's never worked and landed me on psych holds. I wanna get past this. I hope someone cares 🙏🤞
Thank you, Tara