Hello. I don't no how to write it down but I will have ago!! My first time doing this. I suffer with Depresion + Anxiety. 3 years ago I wanted my life to end been through a lot of mental abusive from Husband whom was cheating on me. At that time nothing had changed life was the same. We had our own business, 4 bedroom home, Happy, loving, fished together. Only one thing I noticed his mobile phone. Any way that's how I found out. BUT I forgive him worse mistake he done it again. I felt I had lost every thing to be honest I did. I divorced him, he took,smashed,sold, Any thing of mine inclueding personal photo's of my mom & dad. Grandchildren. Now he is getting married claiming his life is perfect living in her own house. Me in a flat but not like any flat a lot of old people which is not helping my Depresion. I have had councilling. Then twice I have had opointments with councellors but second opintment don't go back. Why? I'm a shamed of my self letting me get so low. I just don't no what to do...Yes I'm on medication + sleeping tablets off my doctor. I still hate life and just don't no how to pull my self out of it. I do have a new partner but feel I'm pushing away from him Why??