Please pray for me 🙏

[Lve2dance]

She's been dealing with so much health problems but she never had before. Started with a random blood test with bad results so she got checked up with that. It was nephrotic syndrome and something else for the kidneys. I made peace with okay this is forever we'll make her comfortable and treat it Etc. Then she had stomach pains rushed to the hospital. A major spleen removal surgery she almost died needing tons of blood transfusions. And then she had problems because of her liver to give her too much IV fluid. So we had to deal with very bad arm issues and what is called weeping of the arms very disgusting. She's had choking problems but we figured it was a thyroid issue. But two days ago even though her pet scan is way before that we found esophageal possibly malignant maybe somewhere else. The doctor never said get bone marrow biopsy or I won't see you. We thought it was optional, so now we have to wait for that. On her birthday 🎂 is a consult for something else.. She first need endoscopy also before oncologist does anything. It's frustrating. And anytime I try to tell people they compared their lives and said basically get over it why are you upset and I don't even tell half of what is here.

[Anitamarieclaugette]

I believe that our MINDS are POWERFUL TOOLS , I suggest that you might like to start saying powerful things to yourself like I FEEL STRONG AND HEALTHY …MY BODY IS IN PERFECT CONDITION…etc . Hope this helps.

Good night 😴 and sweet dreams

[Lve2dance in reply to Anitamarieclaugette]

Not really nobody is with me and know what hell I'm going through, and my personal life how strong I've been. I feel like I have to rationalize my feelings once again

[Lve2dance in reply to Anitamarieclaugette]

And I'm not feeling great but thanks

[Lve2dance in reply to Anitamarieclaugette]

You weren't here and my mom's arms were so swollen from IV fluid because of her nephrotic syndrome and she had pus and blood leaking out for months and I was cleaning it up for her and watching bandages falling off her keeping her calm. know how she almost died in the hospital. Just for more stuff to happen. So yes I'm strong. I know you mean well. But people keep saying being strong to me and it's getting annoying

[Lve2dance in reply to Anitamarieclaugette]

This is obviously the wrong site I was trying to find grief support here but I couldn't find that option I don't have anxiety with this I just wanted to vent and I don't know where to do that here. Does anybody know of any grief support groups

[Lve2dance in reply to Anitamarieclaugette]

And I tried to edit it to say it's my mom but it didn't let me edit that and I live with her everyday. So this is not like I just visit for a few hours and leave. It's in my face 24 hours a day 7 days a week other than when I go to work. And she's my best friend besides my other non-related best friends 6 months ago she's very vibrant and active and happy. This all started with a random blood test that came out bad and we thought it was a couple things to just take care of and move on. But the more tests we get more results we get and we wait longer and things get worse when you wait. But with doctors that's how it is. So you can say to be strong but I'm not a rock I have feelings

[Sillysausage234]

🙏☹️

[Lve2dance in reply to Sillysausage234]

Sweet 💋

[Lve2dance in reply to Sillysausage234]

Like I told my friend sometimes the best words are the ones not spoken 😁. Sometimes we just want compassion or a 🤗 hug

[Sillysausage234 in reply to Lve2dance]

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[Lve2dance in reply to Sillysausage234]

Ur the best