Ghost ocd. I'm struggling so much

[Against_the_current]

Hi. I just feel like a truck has run over me. So stiff, so anxious all the time, insane headache, dizziness, nightmares, rn can't even breathe. And my thoughts are ruining wild. Everything stressed me, nothing is pleasurable to do, everything is stressing. I feel like i couldn't proceed my trauma. Like it's stuck in my body and mind. I feel broken. I'm having therapy but it's not working. I dread the calls with my therapist. 2 years only gotten me worse. The other one that i tried dissapeared and is rude and i haven't sent my homework but i can't, i'm slipping.

Also had some intrusive thoughts of passed ones and i feel like these thoughts will bother them and summond them to haunt me. I'm really scared of ghosts. One really scary shaman told me my anxiety is caused by a ghost. And my mom and Grandma always dream of passed ones and i'm scared. I know it's just my mind being traumatized and triggered (i hope). It's really scary, i slept with the lights on. I don't want to insult the gone ones but i have these intrusive thoughts about them and i panic that they might be bothered and summonded. (Oh now ghosts, i'm going insane)

[WhyshouldI]

Hi, Real_MeSounds like you've been having a tough time the last few years. Have you been given and medication as well as therapy to help? Can you remember a time before you felt like this? When did it start and was there a reason?

Michelle x

[Against_the_current in reply to WhyshouldI]

Yeah. It started november 2020 when i went to dad's house and found out he s waiting a baby from another woman and i had to hide it. It ruined me. I was to psychiatrists this time. I have meds and take them. It's more severe than Anytime. Tho my life hasn't been easy even before that and that made it hard to proceed a new trauma

[WhyshouldI in reply to Against_the_current]

That must have been hard for you. Is your dad part of your anxiety and issues now? What positive things do you have right now?

[Against_the_current in reply to WhyshouldI]

He is. My family is. Positive. I don't know. Maybe that i'm still managing university but it's getting harder and harder

[Lizzo30]

Hi ghosts can be scary but they can't hurt you - do you know what a ghost actually is ?