Advice please. I’m about to seek help for first time

[annamarie24]

I’m 24 and have experienced anxiety since I was about 13/14 but was always told by family when I tried to explain it that ‘oh your just nervous, we all get it, it will pass’. I have been pushing my feelings of anxiety down with this in mind for the last 10 years, however in the last 4 years it has detoriated. I used to get anxious about social events, exams, interviews etc. But now I get anxious opening a door, or ordering in a restaurant. Simple tasks have me nearing a panic attack and it gets me really down, I feel like such a let down to my family, that I can’t even go for a simple meal with them without being grumpy and negative in the lead up and eventually cancelling. Work is especially tough as leaving my house every day make me feel physically sick and I sometimes feel paralysed. I told myself it was the job, it wasn’t right for me, but 5 jobs later and apparently none of them are for me, as I experience it at every job. For the past 4 or so years I’ve also had suicidal thoughts, have self harmed and get paranoid that someone on a bus or in the street is trying to kill me, to the point where I run home and won’t leave the house for 2 days, due to fear. I also get days (usually nights) of euphoria where I’ll spend hundreds or thousands I don’t have (Credit Cards) or make a stupid decision to quit my job. 5 minutes later my resignation email is sent. I can’t imagine coping alone any longer, I don’t see a positive outcome with my current way of life so I have self referred to time to talk and have scheduled a doctors appointment too.

However as I have no history on my medical records of mental health issues (the thought of going to doctors is terrifying to me), I’m worried,

Firstly that I won’t be taken seriously

Secondly if I admit everything i’m feeling that i’ll be sectioned and that really would make me suicidal as the only thing that gets me through at the moment is that I’ve been able to hide it from my family.

So wanted to know if admitting suicidal thoughts will means big consequences?

Thanks

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Sorry you feel the way you do, generally these symptoms can be treated so it is important you talk to your Doctor and put to rest your fears.

It is very rare people get sectioned, so I would recommend you try and put this to the back of your mind and concern yourself more about getting better and move on through Life.

Make an appointment with your Doctor, a double appointment can be advisable, make a list of your fears and concerns, this will help you explain your needs and expectations you have and those worries that concern you.

Most people on site have very similar problems as you describe, you need to gain back your confidence and expectations. Most treatments will be a prescription of medication ?, and possibly CBT where you will talk to a Therapist. This is all standard procedure.

Remember most patients will eventually become well again, while the next group will have will go through the problems at various times in life. It is rare that people suffer this problem throughout their lives. That is why you go see your GP and get sorted.

Mental health concerns are nothing to be ashamed with, so stop worrying.

Make the mentioned appointment and come back and let us know how you get on

BOB

[Jaxs050783]

Hi Anna

You need to seek help ASAP.

It sounds similar to others I’ve come across.

I’m no doctor but there seems to be a bipolar disorder in there somewhere along with some anxiety and poss intrusive thoughts.

If you found help through medication and therapy you will soon be back on track

[hypercat54]

Hi make a list of all your symptoms and how long you have had them and take it with you to the doctors. Try and pick a doctor you know will be sympathetic. I have heard that mental health is the 2nd biggest reason for doctor visits so yours will have heard it all and a lot more before.

You won't be sectioned unless you are considered a real danger to yourself or to someone else. Your doctor will probably ask if you have a firm suicide plan in place and the means to do it. If everyone who had suicidal thoughts was sectioned then they would need to build a million more hospitals. So I know it's scary but make that appointment and go. x