Looking for guidance and support

[Priscilla_Rain]

I’m young I work at a law firm ,I attend college classes online ,and I have a five-year-old son. I just started my new job last week and moved into my own house but my depression and anxiety and thoughts of suicide are deeply impacting my life. I am struggling to get up in the morning and go to work. I am trying so hard to put on a happy face at work and at home but it’s getting harder every day and I don’t know what to do I feel like I’m losing control and need help on how to tackle this. I have had severe depression for about five years now and tried to seek help for anxiety as well, but it seems like the last couple of doctors I went through do not take me seriously and do not address my anxiety. I go through periods of insomnia and oversleeping. Underneath this depression I am young energetic and happy but it seems like that person is stuff down deep inside myself and I can’t get back out. I don’t talk to my family about the thoughts of my suicide and how when I drive to work I think about not coming back. The only thing keeping me alive is my son And the fear of pain to attempt to take my life .

[morant2]

I also suffer from depression and anxiety, everyday is a battle for me as well. If you need to vent I am here for you

[Priscilla_Rain in reply to morant2]

Thank you

[Marshall64]

Have the doctors given you anything for depression?

[Priscilla_Rain in reply to Marshall64]

Yes I have tried citalopram and Prozac,

Prozac has a small positive affect but not much , I feel like they did not address big issues I have with anxiety , the drs assured me these meds would take care of my anxiety but it didn’t

[Marshall64 in reply to Priscilla_Rain]

Doctors are getting more cautious about prescribing benzos for people out of fear of addiction. There are other meds but people have different results.

[Priscilla_Rain in reply to Marshall64]

Yeah I see that a lot and here of it, just wish I could find something that will work for me

[EmmyLoop]

Hey Priscilla. I'm just seeing this post. I would see your therapist and/or psychiatrist as soon as possible. When I start thinking of suicide and things feel out of control, I know I need professional guidance.

[Priscilla_Rain in reply to EmmyLoop]

I just moved I’m hoping to find a good one in the area

[EmmyLoop in reply to Priscilla_Rain]

Do you live in the U. S.? I can try to help you find some resources if you would like. I've done it for myself a lot.

[Sunshine1968]

Hi Priscilla so sorry to hear about what you go through I had depression many times

I am taking Lexapro & Clonazepam it's a good mix

Make sure your Thyroid function normally with a blood test.

Take a high dose of Vitamin D 5000 Unit/day and Vitamin B complex as well.

Try to spend as much time as possible outside in the sun, do excersice the best is swinning.

If you have insomnia you can use Ambien and or 5 mg Melatonin, sometimes I can't sleep and it is save to take both if one is not enough.

Don't stay alone and keep calling your physicians it's their job and duty to make us feel better and they only do that if you keep on contacting them.

Depression is a tricky disease but it passes, hope this post helps a bit.