I think that ive lost my marbles. I dont have a normal reaction to arguments with my partner. First I will cry then that turns into anger. I throw things, I scream very loudly, I push him. I throw things at him. I cry more. Today I got myself into such a state that my legs were shaking and I couldnt get them to stop. That went on for half an hour and then I took a valium which calmed me down but the tears wouldnt stop. 5 hours later and they are still rolling down my cheeks. I threw a glass of chocolate milk all over his computer and him. I think that I must be crazy, its no way for a 28 year old to behave.
My doctor wants me on medication but my partner is against it and I tell him but look at me, i cant control my emotions.
All it takes is something little to set me off then my emotions are all over the place. This raging lunatic comes out of me like its been festering.