I have been doing so well and it is just infuriating when you are trying your best and at the times you need help all you get is blockers in your way.
I have lived in Scotland all my life and worked part time jobs while at school and pretty much all my years since I left school.
Then I had my breakdown. Had problems getting job seekers allowance then, took my making fool of myself in the Jobcentre having spent my last £5 at the time to get the bus to the town where the office is to be told there was nothing they could do to help. I told them to forget it, I could have used that £5 for food rather than making that trip and at least had another week or 2 to try and get things sorted out, but they'd just taken my last hope from me.
Anyway I have just found a more horrendous system. Universal credits, I have been trying for months now to get that stupid system to verify my ID and give me an appointment. I finally get a phone number to call to make an appointment and all they've done is refer me back to the Universal credits website. I asked if they could do the process with me on the phone and was told no.
All the hard work i have done to get my health back gone in a few minutes. All the old horrible feelings and urges are back.
So so gutted right now.
Sorry I needed to vent and now I need to go and try all my techniques to see if I can find any energy and reason to keep fighting because right now I don't feel that my struggles are paying off.
I need to go and sleep now as I have been hit with a migraine and can feel my vision going. I will be in touch when it has passed.
If admin pulls this post for being too triggering that is fine. I just needed to get this out there before I go and sleep and I truly don't want to trigger anyone else issues.
Sorry again if this has upset anyone. I just needed to get it out there and screaming in my home has already been done.
Universal Credits System, designed to cause more issues that it solves in my opinion.