Sorry if this goes on a bit but for the past few years I have been getting worse to the point I am on oxygen all the time. I Also take about 17 tablets in the morning and 7 at night..that's not including nebulizer and pain relief. I see a psychologist but that's not helping much. I was just looking at my tablets this morning and asking myself why I take them.is it so I can sit and do nothing and just exist because that's all there is.
I have had enough of putting on a brave face and pretending I am fine. I am just tired of fighting all the time trying to breathe, I don't want to do it anymore why can't they put me to sleep.If I was a dog they would as there is no quality of life just pain and medication. Sorry to go on but I just don't want to fight. It anymore.