every day. its in my head. theres so much. it makes everything unbearable. like a presence hanging in the back of my head all the time. I cant talk to people right. I cant put most of my bullet thoughts into words. everything is extremely fast and confusing inside my mind. its self-doubt, impulsivity, self hatred, anxiety, depression, mania, emptiness and everything else. when I talk to people when its in my head, I dont make sense and I usually ramble and give up. it's like im standing on a carpet and I keep pulling it out from under myself. im not having fun. and then tomorrow ill deny it was ever there. it will be fine for a while. until I make a bad decision and the overwhelming sense of dread and regret kicks in and makes things hell. I cant talk to people about this. I mess up too much. I mess everything up. please somebody fix me I cant keep doing this. im probably leaving a lot out.im sorry. im not good at this.
somebody fix me please