Beyond fed up!

[Lynzhoppy1]

Hi everyone,

So as the title says, I’m beyond fed up. I’m 6 days away from going on holiday so should be really excited right..? Well I’m far from it, I’m sad, fed up, exhausted, on edge, anxious and can’t help wondering what’s the point??

I’ve been off work 2 years now due to chronic back issues and pain so that’s not helping things, this low point I’m experiencing is getting worse by the day and I can’t stop it. I’m currently having CBT so not sure if that’s part of the reason I feel as bad as I do (I was warned things will get worse before they get better) I’m on a lot of medication and this week had diazepam included, I constantly feel nauseous, I feel shaky from head to toe, I can’t think straight and I’m sick of pretending I’m ok!! I’m a single parent to 2 children, I have no family around me and my boyfriend doesn’t understand. I feel so alone, the thought of me not being here anymore would be better for everyone is becoming stronger and more frequent..

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Lynzhoppy

If you are in severe pain and it is effecting your life, I would consider asking your GP if you could be given a place at Pain Clinic, they will explain how to control your pain and arrange various courses that will help you move on.

They will explain techniques to control your medications also possibly arrange training in the use of TENS

Are you getting any treatments at hospital ?

BOB

[Lynzhoppy1]

Hiya

I’m already under the pain clinic, at my last appointment I was told that I’ve just got to learn to live with it! I’ve done the pain management programme, physio, hydro, and weight management. I have a tens machine also.

[Blue42]

Hi, I suffer with chronic pain also have you tried Epsom salts in your bath? It really can help with pain and lifts your mood. Hope it helps you as constant pain is awful. X

[Lynzhoppy1 in reply to Blue42]

Hiya Blue,

No I haven’t tried Epsom salts but I’ll give them a go, thank you for the tip x

[Blue42]

Also I tried the tens machine on 3 separate occasions before I found it beneficial so maybe worth another try. Meditation can also help as it stills the mind and takes the attention away from focusing on the constant pain. Hope this helps x

[Lynzhoppy1 in reply to Blue42]

I use my tens machine very regularly, hot water bottles, physio plus all my medication. After another fall on Friday my GP have me a short course of diazepam and they’re really helping xx

[Blue42]

I'm only in amitriptyline as my bladder stopped working after taking gabapentin (think that's how you spell it). I take paracetamol and ibrufen. I have fibromyalgia and arthritis in my spine and cfs. So some days are a real struggle. I try to be as active as I can as th GP and hospital wont give me anything else. So I just have to use tens machine, Epsom baths and gentle expensive ie walking and pottering around the house. Hope you carry on feeling better x

[Lynzhoppy1 in reply to Blue42]

Oh right, I’m on gabapentin but never had any bladder problems. I’ve got osteitis condensans illi, sacroilitis, arthuritis, CFS, thyroid issues, depression and anxiety! I totally get it when you say some days are a real struggle. I too try and potter about, and for the most part it does help. Thank you, hope you’re having a good day xx