So Yesterday, I was having a relatively calm and slow day and all of a sudden a wave of worry hit me for my partner, whom I hadn't spoken to; the whole day. I was worried because I hadn't heard from him since the day before and I started to panic with my mind telling me all the worst possible scenarios.Obviously, I was trying not to think too fast and too much but didn't go as planned. Finally heard from him and I had a sigh of relief but then I started to feel that all the blood was rushing to my head and all of a sudden I was feeling so heavy in my chest, as if I had a whole airplane on my chest while my mind was not allowing me to be silent even. I was mumbling some random things to remind myself of all the happy things and I couldn't breath at all.
I rushed to my terrace so that I could get some fresh air and it was there when I started crying uncontrollably and I was choking, I started to do the backwards count and I tried to focus on my breathing. Finally after a couple of minutes my mind started to go towards numbness and I could feel that I might just collapse because I was so tired and I felt so drowsy.
I started talking to myself so I don't fall asleep there and I didn't had the strength to get up and walk back to my room so I stayed at the terrace for 30-40 minutes and just spoke some nonsense about me being a cute capybara...high in sight it is funny.
While I went through all this, my partner was having a bad day himself and I felt so guilty about being mad at him for not texting even. I didn't wanted to talk really but I felt so bad for him that I talked to him when I was felling like shit myself.
Anyways, please suggest me some better methods or any other techniques that work for anyone, I have been having these episodes but I would love to hear from everyone else about what should I do so that I can be least affected by these panic surges and attacks.
PS- thanks for reading this and I hope you have a very happy and stress free day.