Can’t do this anymore

I’m 18 and have been dealing with anxiety and depression for 2 years diagnosed, probably since I was 12 undiagnosed. Pretty much all started when I started secondary school, I’ve always struggled to make friends and keep them. Because let’s be honest girls between 12 and 16 crave drama, “friends” don’t last long. At 16 I started sixth form and I met my best friend, we just clicked straight away and found common ground with dealing with “friends” and both of us are dealing with anxiety and depression. These past two years I’ve been on antidepressants which don’t do much, if anything, and I’ve been doing counselling in the sixth form. Me and my best friend have been talking pretty much everyday for the past two years, and there have never been any forced conversations or awkward moments. She has really helped me and it means the world. However, she hasn’t replied to any of my texts for the last 10 days and I’m really worried. No one sat her house either, Ive checked 4 times and no ones there. This means I currently have no one. And she left me with no explanation. However she’s been active on other social media’s. Which really annoys me. I’ve also called, with no answer. I really don’t know what to do. This past week especially since I’ve had no one to talk to. I’m just really confused and hurt. Makes me think well what’s the point anymore, I tried. Everyone’s just the same, playing stupid games. Why do I even bother with everything anymore

Sorry this is so long

[Suzie40]

Your friend is lucky to have someone looking out for her, and I can imagine it must be difficult for you knowing that ten days have passed with no contact. The idea that she is active social media but not responding to you - you should take that thought to court. It only takes one click on a phone to appear as 'active' on Facebook. It doesn't necessarily mean she's chatting to other people and ignoring you. She could be making every effort to try and reach out to people, but just finding it too much at the moment. Try and think of a different scenario to the one that suggests she's targeting you x

[AlwaysTrying]

Hi Hun. I'm so sorry you are having such a bad time. I agree with what Suzie40 says.... Try not to make up your mind on the negative side of things before you know the facts. That's the anxiety making you take that view. It might just as easily be that your friend is needing some space at the moment.

If it is that she is ignoring you or in some way trying to upset you then that's her issues and not yours and could be completely unrelated to anything you have done.

It feels really comforting to have a good friend to rely on. But that friendship does not define you darling. You are battling something really tough and clearly have a lot more strength than you realise. Your friend is also lucky to have someone who care about her..... Friendship at your age is very difficult anyway. I remember those days and cringe at how much of a minefield it was!

My suggestion would be to send her a little text just to say you are there for her no matter what is going on and that you will be ready whenever she is ready to talk.... And leave it at that for now. Give her some space but let her know she's supported and if she's a good friend then she will come back to you when she's ready xx