Depression and feeling suicidal

[Kurlywurly23]

I’ve been here before, a few months ago to talk about my journey into anti depressants. Well I have now found out the man I have loved for 12 years has been chatting to girls online. I am absolutely heartbroken. I’m sitting here with pills and alcohol contemplating live. I keep looking at my kids and trying to think what it would do to them. This depression has been unbearable and I have lost myself, my self esteem, and my love for life. I’m trying so hard to be strong but the struggle is awful.

[Tee50]

Hi sorry to hear your going through this you really need to chat to your GP about your situation and concerns and put the right help in place for you...

[Delzek]

You will feel better! It's not worth destroying your children's lives or your own because of this, some people see no harm in talking to others on the Internet ( I find I can talk about how I feel as no one knows who I really am, and I would never meet up with someone from the Internet so it's not a betrayal at the end of the day! It would be if the other half actually met up I think.) I honestly believe that the anonymity of the Internet is in many ways a blessing! My ex who is my Best Friend was my Partner for 25 + years we both "Love" each other but she is no longer "in love" with me? I talk to many on the Internet never in a manner that could be misconstrued as sexual or Flirting, as even though my ex and myself are no longer a Couple we still love and respect each other and if my Internet "friendships" did become Flirting or sexually motivated, then I would feel like I was not only letting myself down but I'd be letting my ex down as well. Trust is very important in any relationship, before anything else sit down and talk! Tell him "How" you feel Hurt and why you feel hurt. You may just find it was innocent chat ? Or perhaps he was asking advice about an anniversary or Birthday/ special occasion and wanted to surprise you!?? Trust, Faith and Love should give you the Courage to talk rather than anything drastic. I'm in my 60s now and although no longer living together my "Ex" and myself are just as much a couple as we always were. I live opposite her,still take her to my stepsons dance hall ( I can no longer do ballroom or any other dancing) Talk to him please for You first and your Children. Good luck and all the best ,please take care,I'm Derek , I'm on the Internet talking to another Lady, Mary has always Trusted me and I will tell her I've texted this and because of Trust and Faith in each other she will just hope I've helped.

[Kurlywurly23 in reply to Delzek]

I wish this situation would be the same. Unfortunately it wasn’t innocent chat. I’m glad you can have that relationship with your ex. It’s hard to throw away so many years. Thank you for your kind words derek.

[Delzek]

Hopefully things will workout, it's always worth talking things over, No excuses but we all make mistakes. Sometimes mistakes can be rectified if both sides are willing to discuss in a sensible manner. Sometimes things have gone to far for that but there's nothing that's worth ruining your life for, and having children involved will affect them as well, please try to talk things over as it may help. Good luck and I always reply to people as soon as I can. Take care .all the best Derek