I know I need help

[xxxxx123]

I need help, I know I do. I can't bring myself to get it. I'm trying so hard to convince myself to go but it's so hard. People keep asking me what I am afraid of and I DON'T KNOW. If I knew then it would make things easier but I don't. I'm scared of everything and nothing. It's confusing. All I want to do is to stop feeling this way but I can't bring myself to get close to the counseling building. How do I force myself? My college has free services. I get so frustrated with myself. All I have to do is ask for help! I'm doing it right now. But I can't bring myself to go in that building. I'm so scared. Please, how do I do it?

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It sounds like you are really struggling! When I learned that I would have to get help, I was against it. I did not want to go see some 'stupid therapist' and take medications. I had it in my mind that therapy was horrible and I absolutely did not want to go. I did not want to feel miserable like I have been, but similar to you, I did not want therapy. One really bad night I texted my cousin. She related her experiences with her therapist and how it helped. She said she can't understand my situation because it is not the same as hers but she encouraged me to go. One thing she said that really stuck out to me was- it helps to tell someone all of your stupid things without them judging you. So I admitted to my mom that I wanted to go to therapy, and guess what... it helped. I do encourage you to at least talk to someone. A parent, sibling, friend, or someone you trust. You dont have to pour out your life story to them, just maybe the basic stuff so they may be able to help. Also, something that helped calm my fears was that you do not have to know what to say, that is the counselor/therapists job.

[MAS_Nurse]

HI xxxxx123

You really have made the first step admitting to yourself, and now this understanding community, that you need help. You even know where you plan to find it. Would a friend help you just get in the door? Can you contact by text or phone first? I suspect that once you have a first session with a counsellor all the fear and confusion will drop away and it will be the start of the help you know you need. Make today the day you just do it!

You are not alone, best wishes

[Lx91]

You've made a massive step opening up on here.

I would advise writing a list of how you feel and what you need help with. That way even if you walk through the door and can't say a word you can just throw the list at them. You won't be the first... this is pretty much what I did and it was the best thing I did, plus then they can read everything you are feeling and keep it for there records so is easy for them too.

L x

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Hi xxxxx123 it's good to meet you and welcome to the site. I know it isn't easy but if you want help you just have to screw up your courage and ask for it. It's there for the taking. Make an appointment and make yourself go. You will be so glad you did.

You have received very good advice above. Have a look round the site as there are some good links which might help you. Also please take the time to familiarise yourself with the pinned posts especially the Community Guidelines.

If I can help with anything please just pm me (to do this click on my name). Lil x

[Honey10]

Just by way of writing this post you are a step closer, reaction out for support.

Do you have a close friend who could take you or family member. If you feel unable to go call mental health crisis team someone can come to you instead.

Good luck, keep talking x

[xxxxx123 in reply to Honey10]

I have friends but they don't want to force me to go. My situation isn't an emergency but thank you for asking. I'm gonna try to go again. I'll probably stand in front of the building for a while but I know need to muster the courage.

[Florida1959]

Can you get someone to go with you, does the college have support services, can they come to you the first time. Just go,up to building, walk in, and walk out, donthis a couple times, familiarise yourself, with building, and tvwill get easier good luck x

[Florida1959]

And welcome x