I used to have a blue badge about 6 years ago but then was quite a bit better so when it ran out I didn't renew it as didn't feel I needed it anymore.
Now I have a lot of widespread pain and stiffness and am on steroids, mycophenolate and zomorph twice daily which I have to top up with morphine ocassionally.
The pain is in my hands and wrists and elbow and I wear splints most days. I am always in pain.
I can walk but sometimes not very far or either just end up in bed or just taking more painkillers.
I was looking at trying to get a blue badge again as I'm trying to carry on working, I do 2 days but where I park for work is a little bit of a walk and really impacts on how I manage which just has a knock on effect. Even just getting out the car of a normal parking space is painful.
My problem is that because I can walk, I don't think I will get a blue badge. It would just make my daily life better and I could do more things. I'm so on the verge of crying most days and wanting to just give up.
I know people do take the mick and get a blue badge when they don't need it but I feel it would really help me and just because I can physically walk means I wouldn't be entitled, but I still have major issues that makes daily life hard.
So don't know what to do