Am I a lost cause?

[Not_a_victim]

I feel like I am. Everyone is expecting me to just heal but the most progress I make most days is getting out of bed. I feel like the kind of trauma I'm dealing with is not something you fully get over. You can learn to manage it better but this will always bother me. I just give up. It's just so hard. I wish I hadn't been such a coward and let it happen. 😔😟 It's all my fault. I ended up losing my best friend because this has consumed me and she couldn't handle me. I'm just done. I am ready to give in.

[CarnelianAmber]

You are most certainly not a lost cause. You are a beautiful human being who has been injured. You did not ask to be in the situation you find yourself in. It is understandable and entirely forgivable when we do not make a decision that is best for ourselves…nobody is brave all the time. Nobody “gets it right” every time. I understand how hard it is to lose a friend because they cannot be there for us any more. I have lost friends for this reason as well. It is not their fault. It is not your fault. Each one of us has limited capacities to give at times. Try to find what you find beauty, goodness, kindness, hope in… find those positive things however small or seemingly insignificant … and give those things even a small amount of your attention every day. Every time you are able to, that is a gift to yourself. Continue on your road to moving forward…you are absolutely worth it.

[Not_a_victim in reply to CarnelianAmber]

Thank you♡🥹

[1949liz]

Please don’t give in, baby steps, when I first escaped and came home all I wanted to do was to cuddle up in bed and be safe. It’s quite normal a bed can be a safe place.Its your safe place. After a while I started to have a shower and get dressed and rest awhile. Everyone has their own safe place moving from it slowly and gently. You’re very young you have your life in front of you please seek help and don’t forget you are very precious. God bless Liz.

[Daylightsaving]

Hey, getting out of bed and staying out is an achievement for me most days! I agree with CarneliaAmber, non of us ask to be treated badly and no one wants PTSD. We all heal at our own pace, and you will too. It's, sad that some people do not really understand this condition and all of it's complexities but that's not our fault either. If anyone wants to learn more, there are loads of ways to do this, websites, podcasts, leaflets, studies, mental health professionals and, of course, the people who are living with it.