I can't proceed my trauma. I feel like i'm going insane. My body and mind are agonizing. Plus ghost ocd

[Against_the_current]

Hi. I just feel like a truck has run over me. So stiff, so anxious all the time, insane headache, dizziness, nightmares, rn can't even breathe. And my thoughts are ruining wild. Everything stressed me, nothing is pleasurable to do, everything is stressing. I feel like i couldn't proceed my trauma. Like it's stuck in my body and mind. I feel broken. I'm having therapy but it's not working. I dread the calls with my therapist. 2 years only gotten me worse. The other one that i tried dissapeared and is rude and i haven't sent my homework but i can't, i'm slipping.

Also had some intrusive thoughts of passed ones and i feel like these thoughts will bother them and summond them to haunt me. I'm really scared of ghosts. One really scary shaman told me my anxiety is caused by a ghost. And my mom and Grandma always dream of passed ones and i'm scared. I know it's just my mind being traumatized and triggered (i hope). It's really scary, i slept with the lights on. I don't want to insult the gone ones but i have these intrusive thoughts about them and i panic that they might be bothered and summonded. (Oh now ghosts, i'm going insane)

[nkotbjoeymc]

Hate Feeling That Way.

[Against_the_current in reply to nkotbjoeymc]

Feel you

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Hi Real_Me,

A crazy idea: can you "talk" to the ones that passed away and say that you need peace and to stop haunting your dreams? It is symbolic.

I am sorry, it really is very frightening and I get it. Lights on help.

It is the trauma, I believe, the nervous system being overwhelmed.

Maybe something comforting near you in the middle of the night might help.

I hope the nightmares ease and that you will get better sleep...

[Against_the_current in reply to Nathalie99]

Thanks. Talking to them seems scary. I really need sth calming and my trauma is running wild. I'm trying to rationalize and look at t at this angle - it's just my trauma trying overwhelming me, nothing real

[Agara33]

have you tried trauma processing therapies like emdr or nlp instead of just talk therapy?

[Against_the_current in reply to Agara33]

Just talk

[Agara33]

that can be a big problem and make things worse. a therapist who doesn't understand and validate your experience can create more confusion and trauma when what you really need is someone to support you exactly where you are-who really has the right experience and doesn't leave you feeling more alone. There are also modalities that are focused on processing trauma and allowing it to leave your body. I know about nlp that has helped me a lot-it's a way to reprogram the neural pathways in the brain back to safety and let the natural response to trauma dissipate, and other people here have had success with emdr.

[Against_the_current in reply to Agara33]

I feel like my therapists messed me more. I'm not adequate

[Agara33]

No you are fine. What’s happening to you is well known. Don’t talk to someone who makes you feel worse.

[Against_the_current in reply to Agara33]

Trying. It's so hard

[Agara33]

I know, it sounds like you need a lot of rest and support. I’m looking for the same-the right support that fulfils my needs

[Against_the_current in reply to Agara33]

Absolutely! I need rest and support so bad but i can't find them 😭

[Agara33 in reply to Against_the_current]

what I do for myself is to keep trying until I find the person that is the right fit and has the skills i need

[lovetodance2018]

Thank you for reaching out. I am so sorry you are struggling with such intense anxiety and fearing ghosts. Our minds are a battlefield. I have a read a book about that which really helped me (bit.ly/3FF8C8D). You hear the saying - get out of your head. Well it is true. Whatever we can do to distract our thoughts is important. Our thoughts are not truth, they are a lie and we need to replace those thoughts with truth. An activity I find really helpful is any unhealthy untrue anxious thought that comes up, I visualize putting those thoughts into a bubble or cloud and watch them float away. Then I fill my mind up with things that are true, relaxing, and encouraging. I love inspirational Christian music. My favorite song is God will Make a Way (bit.ly/3L57nAE). I will be praying for you and if you need someone to talk to and encourge you. Please feel free to pm me. Hugs and God Bless

[Against_the_current in reply to lovetodance2018]

Thank you so much 🙏

[lovetodance2018]

How are you doig this week? I have been p raying for you. Hugs

[Against_the_current in reply to lovetodance2018]

I'm struggling a lot. Anxiety is always there. I'm so tired. I can't even respond to most comments and stuff. Anxiety is taking over me

[lovetodance2018 in reply to Against_the_current]

I am so sorry to hear that you are struggling so much with anxiety. I just heard about a book called Breaking Negative Thinking Patterns (bit.ly/3aaN8VB). It is very helpful in taking our focus off of the anxiety and negative thoughts. It reminds us not to feed the negative thoughts and anxiety or it will multiply and grow. I will continue to be praying for you and feel free to pm me if you want to chat. Hugs

[Against_the_current in reply to lovetodance2018]

Thank you so much for the book and everything