With all the meds I am on I would have thought sleep would be easier but NO this is the third night no sleep ! I thought at first it was because I have a new Parrot, I nod now and again during the day but not night's ! I sleep for probably 10/15 mins at a time then awaken with a start ,my fear of? ? I still don't know but have to accept my Nightmares/Daycares ! I am back on Diazepam when I have to go out again (I really thought I was doing well sadly I have relapsed, serious panic attack in the shop)
I feel so embarrassed me! "A middle aged Man" panicking but why? I think I must have been a seriously bad person in a previous life ! I have tried Counseling (one telephone appointment then get told that they could not help me! ???) Sadly this is the only failing with the local mental health care Not enough staff and too many people needing help !
I have now been told 18/24 months waiting list ! I could be cured or even passed away by then! Just don't know what more I can do now! I am still young enough to get another job ,if Have to wait 18/24 months I don't think I would be able to get another job! Sorry for my rant feeling a bit sorry for myself! Thank you for reading my post I hope someone understands how grotty Feel and can give me a bit of advice thank you