did I ever dream

[Lindyloo53]

I would be where I am today? NO

How did I get here? So many threads. Writing my pain, sharing it with my therapist being brutally honest with myself about rewards for staying where I was, checking in daily with my inner self. Accepting that trauma had happened and had wrecked damage in my life, realising that like a damaged building I could be repaired. Accepting I may in future be triggered, developing a toolbox for when I was triggered, become willing to use that toolbox when needed, let go of my neediness, became adult and nit stuck as a little child, read books, took on adult duties like cleaning house, balancing and working within a budget, taking myself out to do things I enjoy, movies, arts, book launches, allowing myself to fall in love….with myself! Making equal adult relationships. So many more but this has all been part of my journey.

[Dolphin14 Moderator]

Lindyloo53

This is a great post about how far you have come.

Your story is my story.

Stay strong and continue on

❤️🐬

[peacefulandcalm Encourager]

great job Lindyloo! that is a ton of healing, thank you for posting to inspire others too, and also great for recognizing and giving self credit and self love, for so much progress, very good job!....<3

[SavingGrace Administrator]

love this post Lindyloo53. It’s a great synopsis of, not just the grit inner determination that can help get one through but more importantly, how it’s the simple and small step-by-steps which help rebuild one’s life. I like the analogy of the building being rebuilt. It’s a soul not bricks, after all, which makes a home grow.

No one said it was easy to heal but it certainly is possible. It reminds and takes me back to reconsider what originally helped me, so far, to date on this journey.

Three simple words: Faith ✨Hope 🙏 and Love 💚

The rest of the path has for me been about time, learning, best practices shared, kindness and support, compassion and I think developing a sense of humour. Learning to allow sharing and not think I had to carry it all myself. Oh and yes, so many adult duties 😉

And you are right, about the importance of equal adult relationships- it’s a shaft of light towards grasping authenticity and personal freedom

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When I read about your journey I feel hope.

[SavingGrace Administrator]

I've been wondering so very hard in recent days, just how to get over/through what feels like a final hurdle/mountain. My mental energy is pumped (my own word) and it can feel sometimes that all mental and social avenues have been explored to escape this lived reality. Today, whilst driving back from Scotland to south England, I had a breakthrough moment whilst singing, from the soul, along to the radio's "greatest hits" ..... freely, just like driving on the road. I realised in that moment, just how strong my own inner power could be..... rather than waiting for all elements to align...

Working on these small, yet important and simple fragments of identity have been so key to my own recovery journey for so many years now. Sometimes, just singing out loud can be so attuning for the soul... allowing the soul to lead for once, rather than the troubled worried mind.

It's a very healing process and I recommend a good belt out to anyone reading these words!