dealing with specific sensations relating to trauma

[articfog]

wasn’t really sure what to title this as, but as sort of an update, I’ve found that I hate wearing a watch - the sensation creates a mild sense of fear and an increased sense of feeling like “I don’t exist in this body.”

I’m trying to manage this because the low cost solution to monitoring my health (which I need fo do) is having a smart watch. I know it isn’t extremely accurate but it gives me a general frame of reference.

the reason why it causes these emotions/sensations is because I was given a Fitbit at this one facility I was sent to in order to monitor my fitness level and monitor my heart rate while exercising (I had to get my heart rate to an average of 135bpm over an hour, and it is also connected to forced dieting to me)

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Thank you for sharing this, articfog. Triggers are difficult and you are doing very well to overcome this. I think if it is too much distress, then perhaps it is better for your overall health not to wear one and measure your pulse and heart rate in more old fashioned way. It is more effort and you will need to get all the different devices separately but it could be an alternative to not wearing a Fitbit.

[articfog in reply to Nathalie99]

Yeah but I can’t exactly do that because it’s extremely expensive. This unfortunately is the only way I am able to monitor my vitals.

[Nathalie99 Partner in reply to articfog]

I am sorry...it is indeed much more expensive

I am very sorry of your past trauma related to this and the imact it has on your life and the ability to look after your health.