PTSD can leave you feeling pretty awful, awkward, and an outcast. The identity thing is a trip. I found out in loss, I lost identity. I decided today was going to be different. I decided today that I was going to use my tools from therapy and recover. I decided in my darkness that I was going to use my flicker of light and Shine. I was going to be awkward, but I was going to recover while doing it. Did I have doubt? Yep. Did I feel weird? Yes. Oh well : )
I wrote this as a piece to encourage someone. I have been in so many dark months that I couldn't see the sun. I know what it is to not be able to leave the house. I know what it is to not be able to look at the mirror because all I could see is damage. Take a little step in recovery today and shine. It's in you! You can do it. I did it today and I'm thankful. Let your beautiful light S H I N E!