I been having episodes...

[mcginnmx]

Number 1 before I tell you anything COVID is not helping anything for my survival grief ( I had 5 people die in 2018) an lately for a stress reliever. I been having episodes like for example I am mad at my boss and I don’t say anything in real life. But I am go back into the situation and tell him what is what the thing is I am talking to the bathroom wall. An yesterday was a good episode but it was sad when my boss interrupted it though I am glad he did. My friend that used to bring me back to reality left work. I was looking at my aunt Silva ( the woman who died) house My dad who also died and we left in bad terms would go there every Christmas. It felt so real I could almost touch it. Please tell me I am not going nuts for seeing these visions... ( also I am dyslexic so in my mind I can see pictures but not outside my head before o.o) I know they are not real but it is very odd to happen.

[Beingindependent Volunteer]

I’m sorry you’ve had so much loss. That’s so much to deal with.

Yes Covid is filling days with so much bad news it’s easy to have bad news burnout.

Take a break from the news if you can. Find a balance with watching relaxing movies.

It’s very emotionally draining to grieve.

visualizing people in your life can be comforting.

If you visualize at home it may be better as some don’t understand as it’s remembering someone.

Take gentle care of yourself.

[mcginnmx in reply to Beingindependent]

Tell me about it my job is underemployed and making ridiculous quota. I been getting sleep and actually getting to much sleep or the right amount ( I toss and turn in my sleep)But with having anemia it takes a huge toll on my body. Take for example the other day I barbed 27 racks which is 2700 clothes each for about 3 days. I needed my arm brace cause my body is not meant for blue collar jobs and I had one extra that I barbed so much that I got my hand stuck. I am also with PA on this app. But yeah we have working ludicrous amount of labor