First post, PTSD support needed

Hi, new here, already been talking in the anxiety depression room for couple days. The ptsd with dissociative features is my core issue.

Daytime is hard but feels more frantic. Nights are difficult in a different way. Like a building fear, suspicion then the nightmares they are so awful sometimes . It’s night now. I just want to let you know why I’m here. I have some anxiety tonight, but I certainly don’t want it to build anymore than it is before I got here.

I have become increasingly sensitive to noises and light ... and no I am not a vampire 🧛‍♂️, but I do have a sense of humor, that’s why I am still alive... but anyway. I can’t stand any eating noises normally, but it got so much worse. Loud noises are a huge trigger for me, but not all noises. I feel so sensitive. I can’t remember anything, I feel shut off mentally all the time, I am losing hours left and right. People closing any door or cabinet sounds like it’s being violently slammed to me often but not always. Seems like a lot because it’s always car doors and always the door to my garage. That feeling in my ears from the loudness reminds me , and my chest gets tight and I swear I freeze into stillness and hold my breathe.

Happy thoughts bed time soon cleaning in the morning ..... yes I have a therapist btw

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I’m glad you’re here ✨

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Hi,

Welcome to the community.

Thank you for sharing about your symptoms and how they change between day and night.

I'm sorry you went through something traumatic that caused all this.

You have very strong coping mechanisms and your sense of humor is one of them. I agree, it's very important.

I'm sorry to hear that loud noises trigger you. It's really hard to avoid. Have you tried mouse cancelling earphones?

They have helped me although it is very hard for me to find ones that are small enough.

Being shut off might be dissociation. It's a coping mechanism to survive through trauma. There is a topic on here called "Dissociation". You can read others experiences on it.

It's good that you are having a therapist. I hope therapy helps your symptoms.

Sending you lots of support.

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Welcome newbie..

[peacefulandcalm Encourager]

hi, I completely relate...don't know if you will get this....

the noise thing, loud doors slamming, any loud noise when we are triggered is torture....for me too....

my plan is to get out every now and again to total quiet in the park, and meditate, then back home, ear plugs, warm baths....soft music....I get it totally, you are not alone <3