⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: SEXUAL ABUSE ⚠️⚠️
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I've posted about this before & I'm not sure if this is the right group to post in but i had a boyfriend who sexually abused me, mentally abused me, & physically abused... It's hard for me to talk about but everytime I think i feel like I'm better I get knocked down again. I'm not entirely sure what triggers me.. but I can't have sex, I get panic attacks. I don't miss sex at all... I don't know if that's normal.. I've never seen a therapist. I've been previously treated for depression & anxiety. I'm no longer on medication because it made me more depressed. I personally went off my medication and suffered serious side effects. I barely can leave the house or drive to work. I'm afraid of doctors, I guess maybe fear of judgement... I'm not entirely sure.. I just feel numb most of the time & live life on auto pilot.
Hi paigexnicole,
I'm sorry for what you have been though.
It's understandable that you feel this way. Numbing is part of the protection mechanism when we can cope, when it's too much.
I am sorry that you can barely function.
Maybe a trauma trained therapist/counselor could help with many aspects of your life and help ease the symptoms. Therapists don't prescribe medication, I think.
I just wanted to let you know that there is hope...
P.S. did you want this post unlocked- visible to anyone on the internet? I locked it but it's unlocked again. I Wil respect your preference, just let me know.
I don't mind people being able to read it. Thank you for your input I appreciate it.