⚠️⚠️TRIGGER WARNING: SEXUAL ABUSE ⚠️⚠️
I've posted about this before & I'm not sure if this is the right group to post in but i had a boyfriend who sexually abused me, mentally abused me, & physically abused... It's hard for me to talk about but everytime I think i feel like I'm better I get knocked down again. I'm not entirely sure what triggers me.. but I can't have sex, I get panic attacks. I don't miss sex at all... I don't know if that's normal.. I've never seen a therapist. I've been previously treated for depression & anxiety. I'm no longer on medication because it made me more depressed. I personally went off my medication and suffered serious side effects. I barely can leave the house or drive to work. I'm afraid of doctors, I guess maybe fear of judgement... I'm not entirely sure.. I just feel numb most of the time & live life on auto pilot.