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[Nickels7991]

It's been a while, i am back & feeling very lonely, have been for a long time now. My PTSD is really doing a good job on me. I don't even know where to start, my mind has just gone blank on me. Soz.

[willingtoheal Volunteer]

Nickels7991 We are glad you are here. I know PTSD really is difficult and a process that comes and goes. I hope you can write in a journal. Go for a walk, go on that google map pick a place and go for a walk. Call a friend to talk to go to a gathering of some kind, just glad you are here and want the best for you, take care

[Nickels7991 in reply to willingtoheal]

Ty. Nothing much has changed, if anything, i'm getting worse. I need help but i seriously don't have anyone else i can turn to, and i hate this. My disability is rapidly declining, and my so called "carer" doesn't even care. He doesn't even check up on me and i live under his roof. I rent a room out from him. He doesn't give a damn about me, as long as he keeps getting all the carers payments plus rent from me and another person, who he hasn't even claimed with Centrelink. He's a narcissist, he's a fraud. He's even got solor panels on the roof, and he is secretly stealing electricity for himself so he doesn't have to pay. (It's to do with a converter box, as/dc, he's worked out the that splitting them, he can tap into the dc etc...). He has the hot water turned off all the time. If i want a shower, i have to ask him to turn it on, by the time it's ready, i can't be bothered moving, and as i said, he doesn't help me. The other problem is that he owns this place (thanks to money from me and another person and the carers payments), he can throw me out without much notice. He's kicked me out before, so it won't bother him. My cat is scared, he'll only come in and quickly eat what he can and then he's back outside again. He's all i have left and i am losing him because of the carer and his own cat. I'm so isolated, can't get on public transport for 18+ yrs now because of panic attacks, i did have a car that I relied on. Yep. He stuffed that up in a cunning way to cover his backside. I've just totally lost hope and faith in the world. Sleep isn't just sleep anymore, it's an escape from this hell hole i am in an physically and emotionally can't get out of. There's no one to help me. I have tried, god i have tried but they don't understand that i can't talk when he's here. I've txted that to them so many times. It's hopeless.

[Hidden]

Hi Nickels well done getting in touch. Take one day at a time or an hour at a time depends on how you feel. Yes Mr PTSD is a horror he lurks when you are feeling good and when he sees an opportunity Bang!! He’s back!! 😟. We are here anytime please keep in touch 😊🌻🐾🐾xxx

[Nickels7991 in reply to Hidden]

Ty, i have been struggling with this on my own, for far too long now.I can't do it by myself anymore. 😪

[Hidden in reply to Nickels7991]

We all know what your going through so talk away on here and it will help. Have you been back to therapy that might help. I was always nervous about talking on here I didn’t want people to judge me as they did on another forum. I left them and found this one by chance and I’m glad I did. Everyone has been amazing to help me on my journey and if I can give a little of that back to you I would be so pleased. Tell us how you are feeling and we will support you. Have you read the new pinned posts about your breathing and grounding? 🌻🐾🐾😊xxx