Hi, so I'm not sure if I actually have PTSD. I don't know if what happened to me was enough to bring that on. Everytike I've heard anything said on PTSD, it's usually for soldiers or victims of rape.. I didn't experience anything that traumatic I don't think.. But I think about it all the time. But I feel like I'm not aloud to be upset about what happened. I feel dramatic whenever I talk about it and its my fault that it happened... But I am afraid all of the time. And jumpy. I am always afraid that people will hurt me. That the world is out to get me. I have never been so scared in my life than that night. It's been 7 years and I still am scared. I'm still afraid to have anyone behind me. And I hate to be touched and I don't trust anyone. But I don't know. I don't feel like I'm aloud to still be upset about what happened. I don't want people to think I'm being dramatic or that I'm using it as a crutch. I don't know. I hate feeling guilty. I don't know if it's PTSD. I don't know if what happened was bad enough. I don't know.. Help.
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I'm sorry about what you went through, it has obviously effected you greatly.
It doesn't really matter if it is or isn't PTSD, it's having a negative effect on your life.
Firstly, you should see a GP and if yours isn't helpful see another one in the practice. Ask for help, be it meds or counselling. Unfortunately,mit can take time and many visits to get the right treatment. Don't give up though!
As for feeling lonely, well I'm glad you came on here for some support, that's what the sites for. It's hard for people who don't suffer to understand, we do.
Good luck and take care.
Best wishes.
Thanks you. Thank you so much. It's hard, because I'm still in highschool so I live with my parents who are wonderful it's just, they often think I'm dramatic.. I don't want to disappoint them and make them spend money on me for this and ugh. It's rough. Hidden
As a par not myself, I would spend all my money on my children to make them better! I'm sure that your parents feel the same. Mental health is as important as physical health, please remember that and ask for help.
You've got to get on with your life as you're young and if this is effecting it, it's important to sort it out.
Please talk to them and ask for help, the first step,is the hardest, but explain things and I'm sure you'll get help.
Take care of yourself and be kind to yourself.
Good luck and best wishes. 👍😊
Hi Annielane,
You got already some good advice on here.
I can understand feeling anxious and it could be PTSD but it's best to find a good specialist to confirm.
Can you tell me how old are you?
Did you already try counseling?
I'm 16. And yes I'm in counseling, but it's for depression and anxiety so we don't talk about the whole ptsd thing. But I want to find a better counselor cause I don't really like the one I have now. Nathalie99
You should listen to your intuition, it will help you find the right person. If you don't like this one, try to find someone who listens, who takes you seriously and whom you feel comfortable with talking about all those things.
When you are talking about ptsd potentially, that suggests it is very serious and these are the things that we need someone we feel comfortable with to talk about. Opening up to the wrong person might actually make it worse...so I'm glad that you want to find a better suited one.
It takes effort and persistance and not to get discouraged but you need to fight for yourself. It's not easy, trust me, I know.
But you are worth to find the best counselor and all the support you need...
You're right. Thank you. I'll talk to my mom about it today and try to find someone who can help me. Thank you so much for your encouragement. I really appreciate it. Nathalie99
You are very welcome!
Assume it's PTSD and start treating as such. Research what you can find online. a program called Seeking Safety used to have items you could download,etc for their safe coping skills. Call a peer to peer counseling hotline (some localities call it the "warm line". don't take just any shrinks word for it. A 30year trauma expert diagnosed me with cptsd with splitting fragmenting and dissociating. Just a couple of months prior a generic psychiatrist said I had trauma but no PTSD. I knew i had PTSD and refused to give up. I only made progress in trauma therapy with the help of a therapy dog in the sessions with me.
DID is painful
Racing suicidal thoughts and thoughts that scream at me. 
Insomnia
Its been a battle but i have done it !!!!
