I didn't upset people by my post a few posts ago when rage was coursing through me. I try to prevent getting to that point doing everything I can.
Sometimes I cannot. I get so scared and when the terror/fight or flight goes on for a while, I will dissociate and begin some monstrous rage that scares me too. Don't ever hurt people, actually spend my life trying to make people feel just a little more joy.
Although, occasionally if the adrenaline has been flowing for a while, and someone is not respectful towards me at that time, I will lash out in a split second in rage at them telling them what I think in a voice full of rage. Then maybe cry. Call a friend, tell them what happened.
I am so scared.
I guess it will all be ok. I know I need to stay calm. Talk to my friends. Stay in the moment.
Today, I will nurture myself, be gentle on myself, and take it moment by moment.