apts are too much for me, the noise all around, it is like a torture chamber because of my particular PTSD. Condos I guess are similar?
So townhome. On and on, too tired to get it all out.
Father could send some money so I can purchase townhome, cheap one and then I would have a home to live in since I have no idea what I am going to do.
But time pressure, I need to have my mother send letter to him explaining my need, then ask him to send money to her (buffer for me), then she sends it to me.
And the emotional terror of all that with my father is causing me to dissociate. Then after all that, do it all on my own, go out, look, buy quickly and move before next heat here in May.
Extreme stress. Dissociating and bump on the back of my spine getting bigger and more painful again.