I feel terrible about my daughter rejecting me. It is very painful. It started when I was misdiagnosed and on psych drugs years ago and it got worse when her cell phone would not work right in my state whenever she called me. She would not call me on her land line. I could not hear her, there was static or strange noises and her phone kept cutting out. I swear she must have called me back 5-7 times for one phone call and this was a regular thing. It was nightmarish. She did not know that certain cell phones and their phone companies just do not work in some localities! It was like she was blaming me for her phone problem because I just couldn't stand it. Things worsened when her son got on drugs for years. He is sober now and working for his dad, her ex. I am aging and I need her in my life. I don't know what to do. I have emailed her nice letters and she will answer me on her 'iphone' with half a sentence. That really hurts. I don't have and iphone and I won't get one. If I call her, she will not answer.
I wrote her a letter but have not sent it. It tells her everything that she would not discuss with me, several issues and this includes my financial situation. I think I should NOT send it to her, though. I was angry while writing part of it. It is a lot to read, three pages. I think I should just leave her alone right now. But it is killing me. We used to be very close. I thought. Life has ruined our relationship.
Also, her father and I are divorced. I left him right after daughter was born. He was and is a very abusive individual and I worry that he has hurt her emotionally. I left him because he was abusive . His second wife also left him because he was abusive. She and I became friends. He had two more daughters with her and he was abusive to my daughter and his youngest daughter. The middle daughter is his favorite and the other two have to joke about this. I believe he hates women. Why am I talking about him? Well, I am afraid he has damaged my daughter.
Maybe she needs to do this to grow up more? She is just over 50, very mature, talented, beautiful, has an MBA and does well in the workplace. She has a boyfriend and maybe she just needs to be with him and not be bothered by her aging mother? I know she wants to be married again. Maybe dealing with me is just too much? I can't believe I am writing all this. I can't believe she is rejecting me like she is.
I have several difficult health issues right now. Stress makes it all worse, of course. I don't know how I have lost this lovely daughter, my only child.
Does anybody else have similar experiences?