I am tired of it over and over.
I really wonder if I am going to make it and survive.
I have to have hope of course. And keep trying. Keep fighting. Resting. Trying new things to heal. Thinking positive. Having faith. Baby steps. Look at the positive. What I can do.
I know to slow it down now when I get too scared and begin to dissociate. Immediately take 1 mg of ativan, what I do for now. Then meditate or distract. I took the ativan tonight.
Got some stuff to discuss but too tired and too much is going on emotionally to even get it out.
I just feel alone, and very scared and worried about getting out of my home here before the heat comes with no ac. Unbearably ill last three years. Landlord will not replace, so have to think about a lot.
Need to discuss possibilities and options and then pick best one. More later , details.
Lots to discuss but too tired.