I saw a string on my sleeve, I gently tugged it. What happened next was no surprise. I knew better. My stitches -- unraveled. Is that what is going to happen if I start tugging at my past. One stitch (incident) at a time until I completely unravel? As any seamstress knows, whether using a sewing machine or by hand, one must create a backstitch or anchor a starting point where the thread is double up. At this point, the thread is secure. Then come stitches created in succession. If the tension is correct, the stitches are evenly distributed and exact. If the tension is off, the stitches are uneven and bind up and break the thread.
Through out my life, I have created so many anchors. Are they strong enough to hold? Will I have to uproot those anchors?
Ill be navigating the unknown anchors. This is scarier than you can imagine. What if too many anchors (incidences) unravel too fast? What if the stitches between them are harder to unravel? Sewing patterns are used for guidance, a path to sew. What if the paper thin pattern rips? What if I have no tape to fix it? What if I have to create a new one? Do I have enough resources to make it happen? Can I navigate this article of clothing (my life) with no visual pattern? Put my pressure foot (my life) in reverse?