*TRIGGER WARNING: Giving up*
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I have been struggling lately to see what’s the point on living my life if I can’t tell when will I recover. To many health care providers, I’m not considered to be at-risk. FYI, I live independently, got two jobs, being an scholarship student, and also having close relationships with people. It seems like I get my it all together on the outside.
Thing is, no one asked me WHY I am so good at school and work. The reason is: I want a mental escape!
It all got to a point where I feel isolated from the world. I feel like no matter what I’ll do, triggers will be present everyday (more than once a day ofc!). So what’s the point on trying?
But the back of my mind keep on saying one thing: At the moment when I need all the love from the world is the moment I need to give love to world.
Let’s see how that works out!