Feelings of terror of abandonment. People not being there for me when I need help. Or worse, purposely not giving me what I need when I need it just because they are evil and cruel. I guess this is all a huge trigger area for me. My father is the original one who sets this off. He is known to be cruel and mean and I guess enjoy watching others be angry after he is cruel.
I am not clear. My head hurts like hell. Out of ativan and one of the triggers was that and not having a doctor, good one right now to help. Long story. Terrified and full of rage. It is so strong that it is overwhelming and I guess others may know how this feels on here.
I guess I know I am triggered, but it is very scary every time it is so bad. After a short time in this state, dissociation begins to occur. Do others know what I mean? I'm sure many do. The mind cannot hold on any more in this amount of terror, and it fragments, gets fuzzy and begins to dissociate.