Waiting

[martinerd]

Going back into treatment tomorrow.thought I would feel more hopeful instead I feel worse than ever and the thought of it is completely terrifying me.I know I need to do it,I want to do it that's why I asked to be referred back and I've been waiting nearly 5 months for the appointment but I don't feel as though I can cope with it.

[martinerd]

Thanks! Just over an hour to go now. I know that I have a better understanding this time around. It was last feb I got diagnosed and in may that I started treatment with absolutely no idea what was happening. I fought it the whole way, I was indenial, and just went with whatever I was told. Eventually in aug I was told to force it to go away and then in oct I was discharged. At the time I done what he told me to do but I really wanted it to be gone so I pretended it was. I know that today I need to be stronger than ever to get the help I need!

Thanks again x