When I first came onto this forham I was writing happy poems and feeling good well fibro good anyway.
Now I can't remember a single day I am not in tears.the pain I have from other things being wrong,and the fact I cannot even see a twinkle, let alone a light at the end of the tunnel. My OH is worn out because I can't do anything on my own! My daughter is not as supportive as she was......and friends...er what friends......... have stopped calling,all bar one who calls and goes on and on about the same things in her life,that she actually drains me!
I have seen surgeon about my bowel problems and he wrote my Dr a letter,we both thought he was writing about someone else. I was in screaming agony,and he said your patient deny's she had any pain......and she is also complaining of losing some blood....I actually told him that I bleed like a pig,even if I only have the wind, or go for a wee, ( Sorry to go on but I have written this out 4 times and deleted it,as it is a bit personal )
I am seeing my Dr tomorrow evening so will try to speak with him how I feel.
Now with all this added trouble I have my scooter but I cannot go out at all very far as if I need the loo I end up in tears. My daughter had a funeral to go to last week and because I could not go, for fear of needing the loo, she is being funny......she used to call me a few times a day and we would go out to clubs of an eve: weekends ,but now she just doesn't even ask how I am. This also adds to the low feeling I have.
I am sorry to have gone on but I have no one to talk to so need to get this out!
I am grateful to you all for being there for each other and I do try to support all of you too it just depends if I am up or not x
Big Gentle Hugs to you all ((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( ))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
Rainbow x x