I've been diagnosed with fibromyalgia , for years I knew there was something wrong but it was always put down to depression and IBS , I go to the pain clinic which I don't find helps , I go to Physio which leaves me in absolute agony for two weeks to the point of not even being able to walk up my stairs . And I see rheumatology and a physciatrist !
The doctors won't put pain meds apart from my amitriptaline and mebeverine on repeat and all they will prescribe is codeiene phosphate . So I'm having to go backwards and forwards to get meds that don't even touch my pain.
I've had to cut my work hours down , ironically I'm a carer and I love my job but I physically can't do my full 50 hours a week and I've gone to 35 but this doesn't even cover my bills I'm now in debt
My partner and my family don't understand at all I'm always being had a go at for moaning , or always having something wrong or being miserable when I try so so SO hard to be positive ! I run my home get stuck doing all my housework whilst listening to other people's problems cook meals and work 630am untill 830pm as well as running a buisness from home , doing my nvqs and organising a charity event . I even had to physically show my family my diagnosis letter as I'm apparently to young to have this .
I literally have no one and feel so alone I try my hardest but everything is being taken out of me ! I can't get to sleep at night because everything aches so much and I listen to snoring ! I got to sleep at 4am yesterday slept till 1030am then slept from 1230-6.30pm !! Today is my day off and it's wasted , no one ever invites me anywhere or takes me out and I'm just so so so fed up and can't cope with this anymore
I have just finished stress management with the wellbeing service and it was rubbish really didn't help me whatsoever . I am on 100mg of sertraline for depression and have high indications for an anxiety disorder ... I feel so fed up even my employer doesn't seem to care even though I want to work I love my job . I just can't cope anymore 😢 I just want someone to listen and support me