Well don't know what happened the last few days I have been really down,everything seems to be getting too much for my OH. He is moaning and saying things like " OK I'll do it" but moodilly! needles to say it has got me down. I am usually a chererful person,but it is all getting too hard to cope with.
I went to Physio today after the fiasco last time I was dreading it,I am usually chirpy on the drive there about 30 miles but this morning I was just quiet and very withdrawn,and OH kept
saying are you OK you are very quiet. I told him I was just so fed up I can't do this any longer....I never seem to move on. I still cant walk without help , I fall backwards with no warning I cant get up from a chair on my own....Can't shower or wash myself...or dress myself....etc etc and I don't know where it will all end.
We got to the hospital after what seemed like forever,and I went off on my buggy to the hydro.With his help I managed to get changed,and they said " Oh the chair hoist is not working can you use the steps " "er NO I cant walk on my own and the steps are deep. Well they got the chair working in a fashion and it chugged me into the water! I was able to walk in the warm water and it lifted my spirits a bit 20 mins I was in the water for. then we had all the washing and drying,dressing etc and another hr drive ahead of us!!
Then this afternoon off to the Dr for blood results...all seem OK but my platelets are low but Dr not sure why....and have to have a small op and investigation that is non fibro linked.(well that makes a change ay ) My new meds collected and then home !! What an exiting life I live and my daughter says,just be grateful you have someone to do things for you and remember what you can do........Hello what things are they then?
Sorry to go on so but really am down today....hope tomorrow I am more able to smile
Sending out very Gentle Hugs today
Thankyou all for being there it really does help knowing we can speak so freely x x