So, pain and the loss of friends etc has driven me further and further into depression recently and I was feeling sorry for myself and such.
Until last nigh, I decided to write everything down, my thoughts and feelings etc.
And the only medium I really have on my phone where I can save things is my e-mail app, so there I was, writing everything down, crying away (as you do..?) and I wrote something that made me think of sending it to someone, but then not wanting to bug anyone, or particularly share some of the things I put in there so, I sent it to myself.
Well, sometimes you just need expert advice, right?
And I thought that would be it, it was saved and there if I ever wanted to read over it or anything.
But no, insanity took hold and I decided to reply to myself.
I have to say, after over coming the thought that i was finally on the brink of losing ALL my marbles, it helped a LOT.
And I highly recommend it to anybody who is already losing the grip of their own sanity, it won't get it back - but it might help you come to terms with everything a little more
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I had some CBTrecently with a brilliant councillor & two of the things we did were similar to what you've done.
One of the exercises was to write a letter to one side of me (angry, miserable etc) saying how I felt about 'their' behaviour & also what I found good about 'her'. Then I repeated the exercise by writing to the 'good' me (the side of me I'd like to always be) from my 'bad' side, saying what was good, helpful and not so helpful about me. It was weird to begin with but I really got into it & when I read it aloud to him, it all made sense.
The other, more complex exercise was to visualise the black, unhappy side of me sitting in a chair. I had to describe what it looked like,colour,smell.texture,etc. It was actually pretty frightening, but afterwards I was able to go home & draw pictures of how I'd been feeling.
So, if you're a bit mad so am I (or was it my therapist who was mad?) Either way it really helped.
Incidentally I find writing to people when I'm upset or angry really helps, as long as I make sure to destroy the letter the following morning - and NOT send it!
Glad your method helped you, I guess that's it really, anything goes as long as it helps.
Yeah, one of my councilors got me to write a list of things that I liked about me etc, and then she refused to continue seeing me unless I could stop being so sarcastic about EVERYTHING but oh well
Well, there's nothing wrong with being a little mad anyway
it's probably something I'll do again and hopefully it'll have the same effect as last night but, there's only one way to find that out
Hi thanks that's a really good idea. Glad writing has been so helpful for you.
Also it was really interesting reading your comment cobweb and I'm glad it helped you. It sounds like a really good, creative and useful method. Very therepuetic.
No it wasn't mad it some ways it's totally sane - it shows you can rely on yourself. Even if other's leave you, your self never leaves you (I might sound a bit off it myself it was something I read in Cecelia Ahern's: Time of My Life about a girl who meets with her 'Life' and he is like her other self - great book by the way )
I write little reminders and reply to myself - or if I feel worried I write to myself saying,' it'll all be ok, believe in yourself' I always have to keep my written notes to myself - even drafts of blogs. etc. which I don't always post. I get a bit obsessive about that. I will have to try some new ways of managing my emotions and anxiety.
I'm sorry things have been so difficult recently. Hope you feel better soon, hun.
I'm still here but defeated at the moment..have you read my last blog? It's depressing but it might shed some light on a few things - like why I've suddenly stopped existing recently. It was a massive shock like I say.
Hopefully catch up with you soon, Beth. (Friday tommorow so I HAVE to be positive. I said I would be!)
It's quite long so don't worry about reading it all if it's confusing! (it's the blog I've worked the hardest on but probably the least coherant- you'd probably get the gist straight away but I tried to tell it like a story)
I've read it sweetie, every last word, I told you - I like reading You're a very talented writer (just saying) It was genuinely like a story...I shouldn't have been more impressed by the writing then I was by the content/...wait that doesn't make sense, that was a complete contradiction in terms =/ Anyway...Sorry, I didn't sleep last night and I'm rather buggered for lack of a better word.
Aaaaand I just read the rest of your comment - it WAS very like a story
Hi guys I have a method that makes me look more nuts than the rest of you I talk to myself I have to make sure I only do it when my husband isn't around or he'll have me sectioned but hey whatever gets you through it is try it . Sithy
Hi Berthy and Cobweb and Funky Fairy & Sthandra I don't know how I got to this thread but it is interesting and gives me the motivation to be a bit more creative with my writing too. I am quite new on this site but it does seem to be a very good one.
I read your story Funkyfairy about your recent sad losses, I thought at the time you have a talent for writing, I also read through all the comments, took me quite a while and I kept thinking about my own experiences of loss and how I wished I could share them sometime because it seems that like illness, grief is also something that people often don't know what to say, they want you to be better to get over it and so they often don't give you chance to spill your heart out before it is able to heal ...
The CBT that some of you have had sounds very creative and motivational too, thanks all for sharing xxx
Sounds like a good idea to me i often write down my thoughts or type words. Mine seem to come out in rough poetry form. I suppose we each know our own inner selves better than an outsider. even though it is helpful to have someone to talk to try and make sense of our feelings. Any expression helps I am often surprised how feelings come up that i thought i had dealt with about things. Whatever works for the individual it doesn't matter what it is anything that helps is a positive. x
Well I've always loved writing and have always written short porms etc, mother is constantly buying me notepads, I have hundreds filled from when I was about 11/12 going through different stages in my life, they're quite useful to have actually. They give me ideas for tattoo designs, more writing, drawing or a collaboration of both. And this almost gives me a hance to talk without having to hold anything back f that makes sense?
Anger, depression, upset, joy over tthings I REALLY shouldn't be hhappy about and such like I've done it every night since posting this blog so fad and it's helped so much it's amazing
I must admit though, I'd rather surprise myself with my feelings then another any day.
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Hope you feel better soon, hun. 
What have i done?? Can't do anything right!....
Who do I turn to. (Please don't judge)
Felt like screaming earlier today, but have just watched the news and my heart goes out to all those affected by the dreadful floods.
THINGS HAVE GOT BAD TO WORSE
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