Hi guys, I usually don't post on here just read some stuff but I'm feeling the need to let of steam.
Been feeling so very depressed just lately and very lost.
I'll start of a little a bit about me, I'm 44 years old and at the age of 41 I had to have a full hysterectomy due to endometriosis , it was all over my bladder, bowel and pelvic area, everytime it got cut out it kept growing back again so I was badly informed that I needed to have a full hysterectomy to get rid of it, I have no children so it was a very hard decision but I just wanted to get rid of the pain so I had it done, straight away I went into radical menopause and two months after the operation I was back in the operating room where would you believe it more endometriosis was found!! I've now been told there's nothing that can be done for my excruciating pain as there's old lesions of endometriosis wrapped up in my old scar tissue from my hysterectomy and it's to dangerous to cut out , so not only have I still got my endometriosis but now suffering from all the awful side effects from the radical menopause, I can't take any HRT or any natural stuff for the menopause due to it making my endometriosis any more worse 😖
Then last year was diagnosed with fibromyalgia and chronic fatigue syndrome. I have no control over my bladder ( due to the endometriosis, seven pelvic operations and losing all my oestrogen) so have numerous occasions of wetting myself. I also have a non functioning mega colon basically I don't poop unless I take very strong laxatives and have been told at some point with have to have a colostomy bag.
From being someone who enjoyed and loved life so much to now being housebound, no friends, stuck on a whole long list of medication some being very strong opiates I'm beginning to wonder what is the point in being here.
I've got nothing to live for