I was having a "good day" yesterday and so thought I would save myself £25.00 as money is very tight just now ( to be honest when isn't it when you are living on benefits?) and mow my own lawn instead of getting "a man" in to do as normal.
I won't EVER be doing that again, so far to night I have had 60mg Zomorph, 20mil Oromoph and 4 Die -hydrocodine and I am still in so much pain I am unable to lay down to sleep or even stand to make a hot drink
I am now on the reclining chair in the lounge with my note book P.C trying to find things to do to take my mind off the pain and the fact that I have to drive a 2 hour 60 mile round trip to see the O.T in the morning.
I would cancel but I have been waiting to see her since my last appointment before Christmas and there are things I really need to talk to her about.
I really should know better by now but it still leeps out and jumps on me when ever I try and add anything new into my already very limited routeen.
How do you all add in new and different activities into your day?
I am sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I have a very structured day compared to most people and NEED to rest for at least 3 hours in the afternoon if I don't I am in bed by 7.00.
I have very few friends, Fibro is not good for maintaining friendships as it is so variable and in the end they all but one slowly but shorly got fed up of me cancelling on them at the last minuet and even when I did get to go and meet them say in town for a coffee I couldn't walk around the shops just window shopping as I was just to tired and in to much pain or I needed to get home for my med's and a rest.
I know I am feeling sorry for myself right now and that it will be better in the morning but this is the FIRST place I have found where there are other people who feel the same as I do and understand where I am coming from when I post things like this.
I have looked up the nearest support group to me and I am going to ring the leader tomorrow to see what time of day they meet and if they meet in the morning I am going to try and go along to see if I can find support and help from them and maybe when I am feeling better give help and support to someone who is where I am right now.
I have just seen how long I have rambled along for sorry but I just needed to get it off my chest so THANK YOU for reading my post.
Have a great day
Love and light