My womb? 💔

[Violet1987]

Good morning girls,

I’m in the process of healing from my laparoscopy surgery and removal of my right Fallopian tube. I’m doing ok but I am still having those moments of bursting into tears. I am so shocked that our blastocyst transfer attached itself to my tube and not in my womb? Is there a reason for this? I don’t want to accept the ‘it’s only bad luck’ line. Considering I’ve had a miscarriage and problems with my lining in preparation for FET - that all failed - do you think that this is my body telling me that my womb just isn’t fit for carrying a baby?

I’m so sad for the two babies I have now lost because of my body. My heart is broken 💔💔 x

[Nat1302]

Bless your heart, it is so natural to feel the way you do, however it is not your fault!! Don't blame yourself on something you have no control over.. I used to feel the same my I've got a type of bicornuate uterus quite severe and I completely understand how you feel. Our bodies do things sometimes that are out of our hands. Keep fighting you will get there lots of love xx

[Violet1987 in reply to Nat1302]

Hi, thanks for your lovely message. It’s the confusion and lack of understanding that’s really getting me down. I’m hoping my consultant can just tell me the reasons behind my failed cycles. I’m fed up having to put on a brave face to friends & family. I’m dreading Christmas as I always get upset during this time of year. If it weren’t for COVID and the fact we are broke I would look into going somewhere out of the country for Christmas x

[Nat1302 in reply to Violet1987]

Awww bless you, I so so understand... Christmas is a really emotional time and awful time for some people (me included). You dont have to put on a brave face, you are sad, angry, emotional and all that has to come out... dont feel bad for crying or for asking them to leave you alone, dont feel bad for asking for time off and do not feel bad for feeling the way you feel because it would be unnatural not to feel that way.. here for you anytime if you want to chat 🥰🥰💪💪❤

[WeeJacs]

It’s so hard to accept. I’ve had 4 cycles and 2 miscarriages from these attempts. It’s a real kick in the teeth as u get so far then it’s taken away again. It’s only natural to blame your body, my thoughts are the same. Take some time to look after yourself and find the strength to try again. It’s 8 years now for us and every year it gets harder but it’s amazing where you find the strength from. I agree with u I’m sick of listening to the it’s just bad luck so we’re looking in to further testing, immune testing before u attempt with our last blast in the freezer xxxxx

[Bluelady-sing]

Sorry to hearYour life was at stake