More disappointment 😣

[E_05]

Some of you may know I was due to have a natural FET last month which got abandoned due to free fluid.

I went today for my day 8 scan in hope this month I could go ahead with it and the fluid is still there. My consultant doesn’t seem to understand why as I had my hysteroscopy in March which was meant to clear it 🤷‍♀️

The plan now is to be scanned Wednesday and Friday, if the fluid hasn’t gone il have to change to a medicated FET. Try another endo scratch (which have never been successful for me) on day 21 and then begin buserelin, after 2 weeks il be rescanned in hope the meds have cleared the fluid. If it hasn’t the cycle will be abandoned again and il have to have another hysteroscopy.

I’m glad to have a plan but everything feels so uncertain at the mo, will cycle number 5 ever go ahead. I feel like maybe my bodies just given up now 😞

[Cinderella5]

Oh how frustrating, you're really not having much luck are you! Really feel for you, its hard when we're ready to press on and our bodies fail us like this. I get super pee'd off about not being able to start treatment again too! The good thing is you do have a plan and they seem to be trying their best for you although I know that's no much consolation! Why are our bodies so flipping awkward eh?!xx

[E_05 in reply to Cinderella5]

Thank you, I know nothing can ever go straight forward can it. How long have you got to wait until you can start again? It’s the uncertainty that gets to me xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to E_05]

Me too! I can deal wiyh everything else but not knowing is killing me!!😡 Im still doing repeat blood tests, hopefully after the next set they'll either be normal (not holding out much hope) or I can be referred to an endocrinologist which iant great but at least I would know I was moving forward and someone will fix me!xx

[E_05 in reply to Cinderella5]

Oh it’s so frustrating, I’m really hoping your next blood tests will bring good news! Xx

[Cinderella5 in reply to E_05]

Thanks! Hope you get some good news soon too!xx

[AllWeNeedIsluv]

Awwww no, I was really hoping you'd get good news this time hun, really sorry. Can they say if it's lessened in anyway? I hope it bloody buggers off, wondering if having the hystetoscopy causing the infection has caused the fluid some how?

Fingers crossed it all gets sorted asap. Your really tested aren't you but your doing very well hun, they obviously need to make sure everything is in top shape so you have the best possible chance. I know the waiting is hard lovely. Hoping you don't have to wait much longer.

Big hugs and love 💝😘💝

[E_05 in reply to AllWeNeedIsluv]

It first appeared last year after my miscarriage but my consultant said it should of gone because I’ve had proper periods 🤷‍♀️ they haven’t really said but I think it looks the same as it did last month.

Thank you, although I’ve frustrated about all the uncertainty I don’t want to risk anything so I’m glad my clinic are on top of it all. How are you doing? Xx

[RidleyNL]

This is the worst, am so sorry it's still not cleared. Not having any clear reasons why not is so frustrating for you, especially when the experts have gone in and tried to sort it. I really feel for you lovely, all the waiting around and lack of answers can really get you down so I hope you have lots of support. There are some foods which can help dissipate fluids so worth researching that, and maybe have some acupuncture if you can as well? Hope you don't have to switch to medicated FET, keep us posted, we're all rooting for you xxx

[E_05 in reply to RidleyNL]

Thank you, yeah I’ve been having Acupunture for a while now and I did read about cutting out diary and fizzy drinks which I’ve done both of and no change. How are you doing, wasn’t you having fluid investigated to? Xx

[kumkums]

So sorry to hear about the delay again. Do you think a second opinion might be worth looking into? Also since scratch doesn't work for you, why don't you tell them you don't want a scratch?

I pray and hope you get good news at your next scan and things can move on for you. If I come across any helpful research on fluids in uterus, I will let you know.

[E_05 in reply to kumkums]

Thank you! I have told them I’m not keen on a scratch her I think there thinking is more to disperse the fluid than actually for implantation. I’m back Wednesday so I think now I’ve processed things more I’l have another chat with them. Hope your doing well x

[7AVA]

Really sorry to read this E_05. Sounds as if a medicated may be the way forward for you which is frustrating after you spent time deliberating whether to go fresh or not. 😞 Try not to lose hope - I know it’s not easy when it feels like we keep getting hurdles thrown in our way. Sending love xxx

[E_05 in reply to 7AVA]

Thank you, I know the only thing I’m now wary is if the medicated cycle doesn’t disperse the fluid and then it’s abandoned. I’m wondering whether to just ask straight for another hysteroscopy. How are you doing? X

[7AVA in reply to E_05]

Yes, I thought that for you too about another hysteroscopy- worth asking. Good luck with it all and let us know how you get on this week. I’m ok just moving towards our last cycle with own eggs - emailed clinic this weekend to book it in for July - I’m dreading it already. In the meantime we have an appointment about using donor eggs so we know how to move forward if not successful. All feels very daunting and I’d like to pretend it’s not really happening to me right now but I know that ultimately that would not be the best decision. Sorry - I’ve rabbited on! Keep us updated honey, we’re all wishing the best for you xxxx

[E_05 in reply to 7AVA]

Not at all, that’s what we’re all here for! I’m glad you’ve been able to do another cycle with your own eggs, I think it’s brave to be looking into donor eggs I can only imagine how daunting it must be for you. I can understand that feeling of pretending it’s not happening, I think that’s how I originally felt about this cycle until all this free fluid arrived xx

[Hidden]

Oh E_05 I've been thinking of you - such disappointing news. What's causing the fluid? I can only imagine how frustrating this is for you. I hope Wednesday and Friday's scans give you some positive news xx

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, they don’t seem to know, they thought the hysteroscopy in March would of cleared it. Hope your okay, is your scan soon? Xx

[Hidden in reply to E_05]

It's even more frustrating when the Drs can't tell you what's going on! Are you feeling ok in yourself or do you have any discomfort? How are you doing emotionally? Are you still speaking to a counsellor? Sorry, so many questions! I'm ok thank, still have this bloody cough. Generally feeling ok but the cough is irritating me so much! My scan is a week on Wednesday so just over a week to go. It's taking forever! Xx

[E_05 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah physically I feel okay, emotionally I’m up and down but speaking to the counsellor is helping and the coping strategies they’ve been giving me do help. I just don’t like the uncertainty of everything, I was unsure about starting treatment again and part of me wonders if this is like a sign my bodies had enough 🤷‍♀️

Ah I hope it clears up soon and the time flies by for your scan, the waiting is torture isn’t it xx

[Hidden in reply to E_05]

Sorry for not replying to you yesterday. It's great that you're still talking to someone - I'm glad the coping strategies are helping you. I can understand why you are feeling up and down. Unfortunately it's crap luck but f you didn't try you may have been wondering ' what if'. The trouble is you will always question your decisions, especially when things aren't going to plan, but that won't help your emotional health. Good luck for tomorrow. Xx

[vic77]

sending hugs xxxx