Hope you're all well!
I've been with my Fiancé for 6 & a half years. I met him when I was 14 years old and he was 16. When we met I had a disability and was on crutches due to having Perthes Disease. I had a hip replacement in 2015 aged 19 so my hip is much better and I'm no longer on crutches. I was so shocked that this handsome young man took me for who I was. We instantly clicked! We are best friends, we get on so well, we love the same things, we are still so in love!
The only thing I struggle with is talking to him about how I feel.
He's only been to one of my endometriosis appointments. He didn't come to my last one on Tuesday last week where they did an internal examination, they saw how much pain I was in and said they are concerned about the pain I'm in. I had excision surgery for stage 3 endometriosis in may and my symptoms have never gone away, I also had mirena fitted during surgery which hasn't really helped apart from stopping my periods. Pain is worse than before surgery and still have all the symptoms I had before surgery. Anyway the hospital want to know why I'm in so much pain and are referring me for an MRI scan. They also started me on prostap injections for 6 months. My Fiancé wasn't there as he was at work but I find it difficult to talk to him about how I feel. I'm not sure if he just doesn't like to think about how this condition is affecting me. I'm due to start an apprenticeship soon, waiting for start date but I just feel so Ill! In my last job I was only doing office work and even that was making me flare up more.
I just don't know where my life is going at the moment.
My partner is amazing and tries his best to help me, I just struggle to talk to him about things. We live at my parents house, he works all week and stays his parents on a Friday, we go there for tea on a Saturday night then he works on Sunday so he's not with me alot of the time to see how bad things are for me. He's very close to his family so I think it's nice for him to stay there. He doesn't go out and drink or anything, he's a home bird lol. He's a really nice person, he's got a good job with a great salary and I just feel like I'm holding him back with me been ill and not working and he wants us to move into our own place but wants me to be working and pass my driving test before we move out. I don't want him paying for everything all the time. I feel so guilty. I'm not on any income whatsoever at the moment.
The main purpose of this post was to see how you all talk to your partners about how you feel and how do you get them to understand you?